confusing...

guys... you know i was with stan right? then due to his mom and everything, our relations and things just gone very bad and now, we are in the stage of 'lost contact'...

i sent him letter but he din reply... i tried to phone him but his mom picked up the phone... i waited for his phone call but unfortunately, no one was made... so i think most probably his mom forced him not to do such things by dunno what way lah... haix... anyway we broke at our last meeting which was at 26th of march 2005... my birthday... and here came our 'two-year pledge' too... in that pledge, we said that we will break for this two years until two years later... if still got feelings means get back together... if no means... '...'

so... honestly, there's a hole in my heart now... and loneliness slowly and slowly crawl into my mind... and it brought along another guy too... everything happened so... dramatically? haix... i like stan and the someone... i dont know how to choose now... should i go with the someone now? or remain single for stan? anyway the someone dont know that i like him yet... and he is currently in the stage of sexual-confusion... which means he is not sure about his sexuality that whether he is a homo or a bi or a straight...

reasons for me to wait for stan is, i love him... he is still in my mind... and i am loyal too... (which caused some of my friends to scold me being stupid) but i think loyalty is good mah... then somemore i still love him... and i think he loves me too...

reasons for me to go with the someone, still the same, i have feelings towards him... it would be better to go with someone i like than waiting for stan who is not 'guarantee' one...

i talked to few of people about this... feedbacks?

Kin: 'stan. be loyal. cant be like that flower-heart.'
Tuck: 'the someone. since stan is "missing" now.'
Joe: 'if u go 4 someone n stan comes back. then how?'


so... i am kinda confuse now... guys got any comment? please i need comments now... i need help...